April 7, 2020

Boys don’t cry!

Don’t make such a fuss!

Something along the lines of this used to come  at me when I cried as a child. It did not really matter if I was sad or had hurt myself: boys just did not cry.

Among the generation of my grandparents there were very strong idea...

From what we live we know that it is possible to live a relationship without harm and that it is possible to live together as two gay men having a fulfilled life without needing promiscuity, pornography, stimulants or drugs.

April 20, 2016

„Why would you ask Picasso to copy Monet’s “Water Lilies” - and how on earth should that work?“ That question suddenly came to my mind when waking up today.

Over the last few days I had gradually started to realise to what extent I often try to be someone who I am...

November 10, 2015

Since I was sixteen, diamonds have deeply fascinated me.

Not because of their material value, but because of their unique physical properties and sparkle.

I have learned a lot about jewelry and gems ever since, about the history, craftsmanship and art of jewelry and gem-...

August 19, 2015

It early in the morning, a candle is burning next to me and I am surrounded by the magical stillness of the woods.

I can feel the world around me waking up, a noise every now and then, some traffic on our little country lane, the first glimpse of dawn.

My body is warm, g...

August 4, 2015

A few days ago I woke up feeling very light, rejuvenated and relaxed – and it was only 2am.

I realized that this was exactly the same feeling with which I had gone to bed with the day before.

I had not specifically done things differently than usually, but had simply bee...

July 19, 2015

This morning when waking up I felt quite out of sorts and suddenly realised how much pressure I had put on myself during the last days.

Having started a new job just recently I had tried to push myself to perfection on many levels and thought that in every moment I coul...